You Call Me Out Upon the Waters

Psalm 27:13
“What, what would have become of me had I not believed that I would see the Lord’s goodness in the land of the living!”

Tonight I am holding onto the promise that You, Lord God, have such great things in store for me, much better than I truly believe for myself. And You are so very faithful, especially as You call me to step out in faith, trusting that You won’t ever leave me on my own.

A dear friend came to me after the service and shared that God had given her a message for me. She shared that “God is calling me to something greater and I need not worry because He is next to me. I need to step into this new season with confidence. He is doing great things through me and has not forgotten me.” She kept repeating “You are not alone.” and “He has not forgotten you.”

There are promises I’ve heard the Lord speak to my heart that carry a great deal of hope, particularly about the places that He is guiding and leading me to during this season of my life. I have beenI struggling to trust Him yet I want more faith to believe that He will open the doors, that He will make a way for me to step into them.

The picture I have is a closet, full of new clothes, things I’ve been waiting to wear for a long time. And what’s even more humorous is that I have exactly that in front of me. It’s time. It’s His timing being fulfilled. Right now.

And the question that’s being asked is “Will you receive the gifts I want to give you? Will you extend your arms so that I can lavish you with My deep, nurturing love?”

2 Corinthians 1:20
“Whatever God has promised gets stamped with the Yes of Jesus. In him, this is what we preach and pray, the great Amen, God’s Yes and our Yes together, gloriously evident. God affirms us, making us a sure thing in Christ, putting his Yes within us.”

So, I run to You Daddy God and say “Yes! I will trust You even when it doesn’t make sense. I will cry out to You to heal the broken places in my heart, for restoration where I feel bruised and tattered. I will choose to believe that You have the very best intentions for my life and that I will see Your plans, Your purposes and all of Your wonderful promises fulfilled in my life because that’s what You long to do for me, Your daughter, a child of the Most High King.

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders,
let me walk upon the waters wherever You would call me,
and take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
and my faith will be stronger in the presence of my Savior

And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

I know that You, my God, are calling me to a deeper place of trust in my relationship with You. Help me to believe for the “and greater” when my eyes can’t see what’s happening in front of me.

A Great Adventure

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Last weekend I hung out with some friends hiking up Mt. Rainier. I hadn’t been on a hike since last summer and I really wasn’t ready for the adventure that came with this one. It was probably the most difficult hike I’ve ever been on, climbing much higher than a thousand feet, but it was totally worth it. With hiking boots in hand, I joined my friends, catching up on life during our car ride towards the mountain.

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What a treat for me to be encouraged by our conversation, meeting new friends from their church and enjoying the beauty of the day. The mountain flowers were such a beautiful sight to see.

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For me, going up isn’t as difficult as coming down, but I was ready to embrace this adventure.

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The climb eventually had me beat. At one point I sat down because I kept thinking to myself

“How would I make it down over rocks and snow?”

This was definitely not what I had in mind when I had decided to come on the hike. I struggled a lot with whether to keep going and even attempted to try to climb up some rocks on my own, but by myself, I couldn’t. I didn’t have it in me. The belief that I could keep going was fading fast. It wasn’t until someone came back for me and encouraged me to try once more that I decided to keep going.

I was able to continue hiking up the mountain, through snow and over rocks. Someone else in the group offered their poles, a tremendous support going up and then coming down as well. Not only did I have the help of friends, but I was equipped with the right gear.

Life can be the same you know. I often think that my culture has influenced me to live independently for the sole purpose of not becoming a burden to anyone. But part of the adventure is living in dependence, not only on God, a loving Father who cares for us, His kids, who wants to help us journey through all parts of life, but with each other as well. Had I not chosen to trust that my friend’s heart towards me was for my good, I would have missed out on the glory of these beautiful sights:

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Here I am near the highest point we went, maybe a mile and a half from the trail head. I was tired and worn, but able to keep going.

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I can’t tell you how painful it was to hike down. At times it was so steep and I felt like my feet were going to fall off or that my knees would give out from under me. Sometimes life presents itself like this.

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The path is steep and full of turns. We don’t always see what’s coming at us. And then we get distracted following others instead of walking together, doing life in the company of those who see us as we are, treasures.

I keep thinking about these words from an old Steven Curtis Chapman song:

Saddle up your horses
We’ve got a trail to blaze
Through the wild, blue yonder
Of God’s amazing grace
Let’s follow our Leader
Into the glorious unknown
This is a life like no other
This is the great adventure

I think there are many souls in our world who are overwhelmed at living in this place, at this time in history. They don’t know how important they are right now, acting out their role in the universe around them. The thought of taking one more step when the pain feels so incredibly unbearable just stops them, dead in their tracks.

Yet when someone comes along to take their hand, hold them up, carry their burden, the ability to keep going grows deeper inside us weary pilgrims.

Sometimes I find myself there, helping encourage the ones who can’t see how they’re gonna make. I don’t know that my words are as helpful as just being present for them. Sometimes I’m the one who wonders how I will take the next step. And I am definitely guilt of giving in and giving up on myself when it seems so difficult to keep going.

But how grateful I am for those who encouraged and won’t let me do life alone.

Proverbs 18:24
...but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.

Who are those people you call friend?
Who are those who need to be reminded that they matter to the world around them?

I may not know all of these people well, but I do know that they cared about me, about my well-being. They took time to learn about me this weekend, offering acceptance towards me. And I, them.

These folks aren’t the only ones who make my heart so thankful that we don’t have to do life alone. There is always someone available to help. Sometimes it comes in unexpected and even in ways that are not easy to receive, but there is ALWAYS someone. My hope for you is the same for myself, that our eyes will be opened to see who those people are and then embrace relationship with them.

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Don’t Worry

I can’t sleep.

The rain is keeping me up when it should be soothing me with the rhythms of its down pour and I’ve already been to that place where I could have fallen asleep, but it came and went all too soon. So now I’m awake. Ugh.

This can’t be good because I have to be up early in the morning to attend Day One of a two day training. I think I’m stressed about heading back to school. What do you think?

Yeah, I think you’re right-I’m not ready to go back. Not yet at least. And honestly the thought of heading back into my classroom is a bit daunting. Not for any reason other than I’m fearful that all the great things that have happened this summer will be a memory rather than fulfillment of the answer to my heart’s cry that shouts “Take me deeper Lord Jesus!”

This summer has been one full of adventure with hopes renewed and my heart stirred for an even greater year ahead. There are changes coming in the next year, new teaching opportunities, a different set of routines and habits to support me as I walk the road to better health, and how easily I forget the things I’ve heard a lot in the past month or so:

The kingdom of God is in you. So whatever you need, it’s already there for you whenever you need it.

The enemy of your soul, your adversary, has already been destroyed.

God is for you so who can be against you.

Yet, I have allowed lies to crowd themselves into my mind:

There’s not enough time to do all of the things that need to get done.

The process to get where you want to be is taking too long. It’s slow and drawn out.

Most people don’t understand what you go through.

Sometimes it’s not lies, but the truth of my reality that I’m slammed with:

You are going to revert back to old habits and poor thinking because you haven’t spent the time necessary to get yourself organized. You will feel so overwhelmed when school starts because you didn’t do much when you had the time.

Ever wish you could find the OFF switch? Yeah, me too.

And this so ridiculous because I have no business thinking like this.

Philippians 4:6-8 says
“Do not fret or have any anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition (definite requests), with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.
“And God’s peace shall be yours, that tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace which transcends all understanding shall garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
“For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things fix your minds on them.”

As difficult as it is at times, I know that this is where the battle in my mind is allowed to rage because I don’t do anything. I don’t respond, sometimes because I’m exhausted from lack of sleep-it’s an ugly cycle to get caught up in and I’m here again. “Why?” (she says with a fist in the air) Other times it’s because I’m lazy and don’t want to exert the energy it takes to remain vigilant-vigilant so that not I’m taken out by the enemy of my soul.

But it always comes back to this truth:

I have a choice to act. Whatever I do reveals what’s inside of me, the things I hold near and dear.

Right now this level of stress is telling me that I need more of the truth that God speaks about me in my heart. It’s obviously apparent that the well has run dry. So time for a fill-up.

I must remember and keep this close in my peripheral: the way that God thinks about me is good. It’s pure. It’s beautiful and kind and compassionate. And no matter what my actions are, He won’t ever change His mind about me.

How am I going to remember this and know it deeply inside of me?

By filling up with His truth.

By letting His words wash over me.

The peace that comes from knowing He is for me and on my side.

He is everyday working everything for good in my life.

And I’m not where I’m at by mistake. He’s placed me there for His purpose.

So I choose to stand in faith, believing He is greater in me than the one in the world whose only goal is to take me out. You see, I’m pretty powerful when I know and believe that I belong to the God of the universe. And I lack nothing. Absolutely. Nothing. At. All.

This has been a life verse for me over the past six months:

Psalm 23:1-6
The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

He makes me to lie down in green pastures; He leads me beside the still waters.

He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life; And I will dwell in the house of The Lord forever.

Prayer Changes Things

Prayer changes things.

It changes my heart. It changes the hearts of others involved in my relationships. It’s like plugging in my juicer when I’m getting ready to combine all the really good fruits and vegetables God has blessed me with, to enjoy and take in so that my body can live to the fullest.

It moves God’s heart when we pray. Sometimes we pray for things to change because we’re hurting or disappointed or misunderstand what’s happening in the world around us. But if we are willing to respond to His heart, to act in obedience to what He says to do in the moment, in a split second, He is already answering our prayers. He is demonstrating to us that He hears, He listens, He cares about whatever we’re facing.

And is so, so, so very faithful to act on behalf of us, His kids. We are sons and daughters of a pretty incredible King. So we are princes, not paupers. We are Kings and Queens with a heritage that gives us access to anything we need. Our King has insurmountable riches-everything is His and comes from Him. And He says I’m allowed the access code. I have the complete package, the full meal deal. Am I right?

Thank You Lord for Your Goodness and Mercy that always go with me. Thank You for hearing my heart and responding to my prayer. You are amazing and there is no one, not ever, who comes close to comparison. I’m so grateful for how You lead and guide me, and how You are teaching me to trust You even more today than I did yesterday.

Lord, for anyone who reads this, I pray that as they cry out to You, that You would show them just how much You love them and how intently You are watching over them, hearing their prayers. Open their eyes to see You move and respond as they pray to see Your heart revealed in this life, here on earth.

God, You are so very good to us!
We love You!!!

Because He Lives In Me

What an incredible thing it is to know God! Just to know the realness and tangibility of His love is something I continue to experience in new ways everyday.

Today His grace lifted me up out of a pit of weakness, a place where I have found myself living, succumbing to my flesh in the fight against the strong pull of temptations because I was so tired of living a disciplined life, one that I cannot do on my own strength, but rather by leaning on the strong arms of my Savior. He knows my weakness. He knows the temptations and struggles I face. He also knows the schemes and plans of those who work against me to steal, destroy and bring death where He has offered me everything that I have need of in this life, that is accessible to me at any time.

I woke up not feeling well, my voice was weak and in my own strength I knew I wouldn’t be able to lead worship at church. It’s not that I didn’t want to go, but in that moment I just longed to feel differently in my body. For about two years now I have wrestled with a great deal of physical pain. And pressing through it while hoping for a miracle of restoration is not a simple task. Often I feel worn out and weary. And on top of it, I’m walking through a process of healing emotionally. So some days it’s a daunting task just to get up out of bed and start my day, believing that I will make it through whatever comes my way, trusting that God has been with me through it all.

Praise God that I am in a season now where the restoration and healing of my soul, my mind and my body is truly coming to pass! I’m so grateful to God for the people who pray with me, encourage me and stand by me in believing that there is hope for me to be healed and set free because we have a Savior Who went to Hell and paid for my pain with His life.

I opened one of my journals that I began writing in last summer, full of truth about who I am in Christ Jesus and with words of hope to speak out loud whenever I feel lost and discouraged. I read these words:

“God, Your plan for my life is always for me to be blessed and walk in victory! You have an amazing journey of goodness to save, heal and bless me. I know You can help me overcome my addictions and I’m so thankful because I want to be free. Every time I come to You, I win another battle. Help me remember what Your word says: You will never leave me or forsake me, and You love me no matter what. Thank You Lord, for showing me who I am in You.”

As I cried out to Jesus I thanked Him for what He wanted to do today and with that I began to get ready. I turned on some music to worship with and in minutes I noticed that I felt so much better. I was energized and restored and the physical discomfort had left. It was as if the weight of things that have weighed me down were lifted off of me and my faith was being stirred. Hope was growing in my heart and I knew God had a plan for me to be this morning at church.

As I prayed with the sound team and worship band before our rehearsal, I sensed in my heart that God wanted all of us to take turns praying out loud for the service. When they didn’t speak up I knew it was time for me to encourage them with the truth that God wanted to hear the cries of their heart, that He knew they had a specific prayer for today’s service. I was so blessed to hear these young men offer up their petitions to our Savior and knew that it wasn’t a mistake that He led me to have us pray this way.

The time in worship, seeing the beautiful drama and dance that the youth had prepared for today, hearing the word of God about giving all that I am and all that I have to Him, serving in our after-service fellowship were all beautiful reminders today that because God lives in me I am more than able to conquer the things that fight against me, the temptations, the fears, the places where I’ve felt rejection and pain. He IS Alive! He is actively at work in me, changing me with His precious love, wiping away all the dirt and grime that comes from living in this world. He lives in me and because He lives I can face anything that may come, just like the song says:

Because He lives I can face tomorrow.
Because He lives all fear is gone.
Because I know He holds the future
My life is worth the living just because He lives.

Though there are battles that rage inside of me, fighting against the hope that I have received, attempting to rob me of the joy that is so freely given because I am the one in whom God delights, I know that I can walk in freedom and through any storm that I might face. There is an incredible peace that comes from knowing who I am in Christ and that He is always there.

If you don’t sense that peace within yourself, all you have to do is say “Jesus, I need You, right now in this moment. I am running to You with arms open wide. I want to know Your peace. I want to feel Your joy overflow in my heart. You know what I have to face so I ask You to help me walk through this. My hand is in Yours and I will follow where You lead. I will trust that You are faithful to deliver me from the enemies of my soul and any war that rages within me. You are a gracious and loving Savior Who takes notice of me all day long and Whose love is never in short supply for me. Teach me to know who I am in You Lord. Show me my identity and who You say that I am. Help me to become the person You are calling me to be. Thank You for giving up Your life for mine. I receive all that You have for me right now in this moment.”

There Is No Shame Here

Isaiah 43:4
“You are precious and honored in My sight.”

These words confirm yet again the deep, deep love of my Heavenly Father. A love that won’t change because of my choice. A love that will steadily pursue me. A love that is taking hold of my heart to convince me that I am accepted no matter what I do, no matter how many times I feel like I have failed my God. A love that remains strong for me because I belong to the King of the universe and He has everything I need, even when I struggle to believe it.

Time and time again I find myself considering the love Christ has for me. I am grateful that I know His love more deeply for me today than I did yesterday. I’m walking through a situation where I feel that no matter what I choose to do, I’m faced with the cost of my choices. And right now it feels like no small thing. But perhaps that’s a lie from the pit of hell intended to keep me from moving forward. Nonetheless, I still have a choice to make and I have been worried about the consequences, about how this would alter the course of my life.

Yet that’s the amazing thing. God is speaking to me, reassuring me with His gentleness that no matter what I choose to do He will never change His love for me. He says “there is no condemnation for me because I am in Him.” (Romans 8:1) He knows my heart and the emotional battle that I’m fighting. He knows the fears I have in facing the unknown. He also knows my future and He isn’t trying to manipulate or control me in an effort to make me choose the “right thing.” It’s because of His love that I have peace in the freedom to choose. The prayer of my heart is to choose His way, to honor Him, so that He is pleased with me. But He already feels that way because I’m His kid. He delights in me. He knows I am taking a risk and says to me “There is no shame here. I know your heart. I understand what you’re facing and it’s going to be okay. You don’t have to face this alone. I’m right here next to you. I won’t stop loving you. My grace for you is greater than you know.”

Your precious grace oh God, will be sufficient for whatever I may face. And my hope is in You alone. I know You will not not leave me to fight this battle on my own.

Love Is Worth The Fight

James 1:4 reads
“Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

This caught my eye tonight because lately I feel more than overwhelmed at times. In the midst of crying out to the Savior of my soul I know deep inside that I can’t give up now. There’s no turning back for me because I decided long ago I was done with the bad habits and stupid thoughts that have held me captive for much of my life. So onward and upward I climb, but right now I’m worn out. I’ve been sick. I’m tired. I have so many things to keep track of and be responsible for. It’s exhausting trying to live a disciplined life. This is no simple task. It’s requiring every ounce of fight and resolve to keep my head up when I want to shrink back and crumble to the floor.

How often have I cried out for You to change me Lord only to find myself with heels dug in, stalling the process of growth because I didn’t want to do the work of becoming disciplined. Or I was too scared to face the unknown or even so the truth that I’m far from perfect and in desperate need of Your grace to change the ugly places in my heart. I’m really good at coming up with excuses for why I can’t than accepting the truth that I can do this. I will make it because I am not alone.

I’m so grateful to You Lord for not giving up on me. Not once. Not ever! You keep chasing me and calling out to me with such tenderness that I can’t help but know Your love for me runs deep.

Keep calling me. Don’t stop pursuing my heart.

I think of the words from this song that someone long ago said I should listen to, something I didn’t pursue right away, but at just the right moment they hit home with me:

“You won’t relent until You have it all.
My heart is Yours.”

This is my prayer Lord Jesus. I just want to be so in love with You that nothing else matters.

The Comprehensive Package

“You have the comprehensive package, which means you have everything.” What a comfort to hear those words this afternoon as I spoke with the finance manager who had helped me with my car purchase last spring. When a light appeared on the dashboard of my car as I was coming home from school yesterday I thought perhaps the oil was low, yet after further research I learned that I needed to get it checked out sooner than later. A myriad of thoughts mingled with worry began to squeeze their way into my head:

What am I going to do?

When do I have the time to get this looked at?

How much will it cost? (I mean I bought this car so that I could be done with car repairs for awhile.)

Fear reared its ugliness in my face. I’m sure the Lord was telling me it would all work out, but I was so distracted I couldn’t see Him, much less hear Him talking to me. I was in a hurry to get home so I could eat dinner before my guitar student arrived for her lesson and had planned to go to church afterwards. Once back in the car I was reminded I needed to do something about the malfunction light.

Worship was already in process when I arrived and the words in the songs we sang ministered so deeply to my heart, not just in this situation, but several more where I have heard my Heavenly Father say “you worry too much.” I pressed in during worship, to chase after His heart, declare my trust in what God had in store for me and believe that He already had this covered.

And He does. Truly. Every part of my life, even when I struggle to believe that this is truth. I may not be looking beyond my situation or past the distractions that keep me from hearing His calm voice reassure me that all is well. But that doesn’t stop Him from continuing to prove Himself faithful towards me.

I have the comprehensive package. I have access to everything I need or want or that is beneficial to me. His power, His presence, His comfort. Whatever I need, whenever I need it. It’s always available to me.

Even in the midst of the toughest battle battles we face, He still continues to pour out His richest blessings in our lives.

Psalm 23:5 from The Message
You serve me a six-course dinner right in front of my enemies.

I can still have joy even when my heart is hurting from the scars that were left by the world. I can still believe that God is good when I don’t see Him actively working before my eyes because I know of and have experienced His faithful love towards me. Intentionally, I set my face like flint like Isaiah says and look to my Savior because He is hope that does not disappoint.

Maybe you are in a season where the storms of this life are hitting you hard and you just can’t seem to stand strong. He is there to hold you up and walk with you or perhaps carry you through the darkest nights.

Maybe you are waiting for your breakthrough. He is working it out so that at just the right time the glass ceiling will break open and His blessings will swallow you up so much that you’re swimming in them.

I know the faithful love

Of the One who died for me.

This precious son of God

Came to set me free.

Defeating the grave

My soul to save

His love He gave

All for me.

Beloved, you are not alone in your trials. There is a Savior who wants to take your burdens, your fears about the future, your sickness and pain, and lift those heavy weights from your shoulders. He wants you to let go of the things weighing you down so that you can be free to run and dance and revel in His goodness and His grace. Pour your heart out to the One who has everything you could ever need in this life. He is always ready to receive you with arms open wide.

Joshua 1:2-9 from The Message
“…I’m giving you every square inch of the land you set your foot on—just as I promised Moses. From the wilderness and this Lebanon east to the Great River, the Euphrates River—all the Hittite country—and then west to the Great Sea. It’s all yours. All your life, no one will be able to hold out against you. In the same way I was with Moses, I’ll be with you. I won’t give up on you; I won’t leave you. Strength! Courage! …Don’t get off track, either left or right, so as to make sure you get to where you’re going. And don’t for a minute let this Book of The Revelation be out of mind. Ponder and meditate on it day and night, making sure you practice everything written in it. Then you’ll get where you’re going; then you’ll succeed. Haven’t I commanded you? Strength! Courage! Don’t be timid; don’t get discouraged. God, your God, is with you every step you take.”

Do You Really Have Plans For Me?

Last night someone praying for me spoke this verse:

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

I was thinking to myself “I know You say that Lord, but sometimes I feel like You forgot that my heart has desires for some big things to happen and when I don’t see anything on the horizon, I struggle to trust that You are working these things out for my good, to happen at the very best time.”

But because I was wallowing in my discontent, I missed this direction that comes in the next verse:

“Then you will call upon Me, and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear and heed you.”

Oops. Sorry God. I forgot to not only come to You, but to remember that You hear me and pay attention to the things that my heart cries out for. You know how much I want to be reconciled in relationships that feel strained. You know how deep the hope to have a family has lived inside of me since I was little girl, watching the way my mom cared for me and wanting to do that for someone else. You know that I’m struggling to break free from old patterns of living so that I can give You all of me. You know how broken I am.

Verse 13 says,
“Then you will seek Me, inquire for, and require Me as a vital necessity and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.”

I acknowledge that I cannot do life without You Jesus. I need You, desperately and even when I have ignored You or walked away, I’m gonna keep running back to You because I know that it just won’t work any other way without You.

The best part about what I read comes next:

Jeremiah 29:14
“I will be found by you,” says the Lord, “and I will release you from captivity and gather you from all the nations and all the places to which I have driven you,” says the Lord, “and I will bring you back to the place from which I caused you to be carried away captive.”

He is bringing me to that place of freedom and restoration. He is restoring the broken places, securing my hope for what’s to come and releasing new things to be birthed inside of me.

God, You are giving me hope for the future. I have no idea what it looks like because whenever I attempt to conjure it in my mind, I am reminded in whatever way I need in the moment that Your ways are NOT mine. Thank You Father for that because I grow everyday in the confidence that Your ways are so much better for me in the long run.

Your promises continue even still:

Zephaniah 3:18-20
“I will gather those belonging to you…those in captivity
(how often do I find myself here)…I will save the limping ones (I am one of those some days) and gather the outcasts (who hasn’t felt this way?) and will make them a praise and a name in every land of their shame. At that time I will bring you in (Me?); yes, at that time I will gather you (for sure and for certain), for I will make you a name and a praise among all the nations of the earth when I reverse your captivity before your eyes,” says the Lord.

God is good. We can easily forget that He is, but He cannot be anything opposite of good because it goes against His character. We must continue to cry out to Him when we’re hurting, to seek Him when we need to understand and be found by Him.

Lord, I don’t want to drawn away from You by deception because my heart is hurting. I don’t want to fall into the trap of believing there is something better for me because I don’t see You responding to my prayers in my time. Help me to continue to wait at Your feet in hopeful anticipation that You have good things in store for me.

Zephaniah 3:17
“The Lord your God is in the midst of you, a Mighty One, a Savior Who saves! He will rejoice over you with joy; He will rest in silent satisfaction and in His love He will be silent and make no mention of past sins, or even recall them; He will exult over you with singing.”

Your promises I take great delight in because You prove Yourself faithful to me over and over again. I choose to trust in You, Savior of the world.