Last night someone praying for me spoke this verse:
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
I was thinking to myself “I know You say that Lord, but sometimes I feel like You forgot that my heart has desires for some big things to happen and when I don’t see anything on the horizon, I struggle to trust that You are working these things out for my good, to happen at the very best time.”
But because I was wallowing in my discontent, I missed this direction that comes in the next verse:
“Then you will call upon Me, and you will come and pray to Me, and I will hear and heed you.”
Oops. Sorry God. I forgot to not only come to You, but to remember that You hear me and pay attention to the things that my heart cries out for. You know how much I want to be reconciled in relationships that feel strained. You know how deep the hope to have a family has lived inside of me since I was little girl, watching the way my mom cared for me and wanting to do that for someone else. You know that I’m struggling to break free from old patterns of living so that I can give You all of me. You know how broken I am.
Verse 13 says,
“Then you will seek Me, inquire for, and require Me as a vital necessity and find Me when you search for Me with all your heart.”
I acknowledge that I cannot do life without You Jesus. I need You, desperately and even when I have ignored You or walked away, I’m gonna keep running back to You because I know that it just won’t work any other way without You.
The best part about what I read comes next:
“I will be found by you,” says the Lord, “and I will release you from captivity and gather you from all the nations and all the places to which I have driven you,” says the Lord, “and I will bring you back to the place from which I caused you to be carried away captive.”
He is bringing me to that place of freedom and restoration. He is restoring the broken places, securing my hope for what’s to come and releasing new things to be birthed inside of me.
God, You are giving me hope for the future. I have no idea what it looks like because whenever I attempt to conjure it in my mind, I am reminded in whatever way I need in the moment that Your ways are NOT mine. Thank You Father for that because I grow everyday in the confidence that Your ways are so much better for me in the long run.
Your promises continue even still:
“I will gather those belonging to you…those in captivity (how often do I find myself here)…I will save the limping ones (I am one of those some days) and gather the outcasts (who hasn’t felt this way?) and will make them a praise and a name in every land of their shame. At that time I will bring you in (Me?); yes, at that time I will gather you (for sure and for certain), for I will make you a name and a praise among all the nations of the earth when I reverse your captivity before your eyes,” says the Lord.
God is good. We can easily forget that He is, but He cannot be anything opposite of good because it goes against His character. We must continue to cry out to Him when we’re hurting, to seek Him when we need to understand and be found by Him.
Lord, I don’t want to drawn away from You by deception because my heart is hurting. I don’t want to fall into the trap of believing there is something better for me because I don’t see You responding to my prayers in my time. Help me to continue to wait at Your feet in hopeful anticipation that You have good things in store for me.
“The Lord your God is in the midst of you, a Mighty One, a Savior Who saves! He will rejoice over you with joy; He will rest in silent satisfaction and in His love He will be silent and make no mention of past sins, or even recall them; He will exult over you with singing.”
Your promises I take great delight in because You prove Yourself faithful to me over and over again. I choose to trust in You, Savior of the world.