Can I be honest here for a moment and share with you that I am struggling a lot lately in the wait for a godly man to search me out and capture my heart. I think it’s the the fear that by the time he comes into my life I won’t be able to have children or the energy to keep up with them. I know that’s silly in a sense, because women much older than me are having kids all the time. Maybe I’m just trying to be realistic and reasonable. But that’s the thing: God is not realistic or reasonable at times.
What do I mean by that?
He moves in ways that are evident of Him at work in me, doing something incredible and amazing that only He can do so that it would draw my gaze heavenward, so that my heart would be drawn to Him and I would see His goodness, His faithfulness, His kindness towards me. I was created so that He could lavishly pour out His love on me like only a daddy does. I was created by Him to be loved dearly and deeply every day of this life.
So, perhaps His plan for me is to continue in the waiting, living in such a way that I cause others to look His way, being made more like Him so that when the time comes for me to be sought out and my heart captured by that godly man who I hope loves God more than he does me, then I will glorify Him all the more with an incredible and amazing testimony of His faithfulness and love towards me.
I won’t deny this has been a difficult and at times sorrowful place for me, but I refuse to remain in discontent because I know that in His purpose and plan is far greater for me than I would have ever imagined. Amazing, wonderful things have happened in my life because of how He works in me and through me for me. I have longed to be a wife and mother for almost my entire life and have to fight the part of my heart that wants to see this fulfilled. I won’t lose hope in the waiting.
Psalm 27:13-14 (The Amplified Bible)
What, what would have become of me had I not believed that I would see the Lord’s goodness in the land of the living! Wait and hope for and expect the Lord; be brave and of good courage and let your heart be stout and enduring. Yes, wait for and hope for and expect The Lord.
Maybe you are in a season of waiting like me, for provision or healing or reconciliation of some kind. I want to encourage you today that God knows your heart’s desire is to see that come to pass, whatever it is. He is well aware of your circumstances and works quite intentionally on your behalf, for you. Don’t ever lose hope that He is working it out for your good. We may not understand sometimes the why in our waiting, but He does know our need, He knows the desires of our hearts and He is at work to bring it to pass.
Dear Lord, help us to look to You when we are struggling to believe that You have good things planned for our lives. Help us to recognize that You ARE faithful to write an amazing story for each one who reads this. Will you stir out hearts for more of You? Help us to find that place where we can rest in Your presence and let the truth of Your promises sink deep into our hearts. We pray this in faith in the precious name of Jesus, amen.